So, it's been a week since I had my shunt adjustment down to 140 from 150. How am I doing? Well, although there have not been huge differences....there have been some small ones -- positive ones. I just don't know what to make of it....I don't know if this is as good as it's going to get, or if I can expect even more good things to come. Here, I have had my shunt pressure adjusted so many times over the years, yet I feel like this is one of the first times. I don't know what to expect, and I feel apprehensive about what's already happened....which isn't a whole lot.
I think I had expected there to be a much bigger, more noticeable change. I not only expected it, but had a lot of hope. I have been dying for things like; this numbness I get throughout my body, to disappear. But it hasn't -- not yet. I had hoped that this extreme tiredness I get after I eat, to go away. But I still get it. I had hoped that this very odd problem of not being able to sleep on my back or left side, would disappear. It feels like I am having a little seizure if I fall asleep on those sides. I can lay on those sides, but not go to sleep, or it feels as if I am having a little seizure. I can only sleep on my right side, and I have been for a few years now, so have been anxious to get back to being able to sleep on those other sides. My right side -- especially my hip, has been hurting something awful. Just aches and aches, and wakes me up in the night.
I just have so many things I had hoped would correct over time as my pressure was lower, and really, the only main difference is that "if" I get enough sleep, then I will feel a little more "with it" during the day. I feel more, "in-the-moment" rather than like I'm so much in a fog. But I am not giving up hope or faith yet. I feel like.....over more time, some more things will straighten out. I keep trying to remind myself that my brain has had all this extra pressure on it for quite some time now, so it not only takes time for the extra pressure to get off the brain, but then some things have to heal once the pressure "is" off.
A waiting game. That's what this is. Although I've gotten better at waiting, in general, over the years -- waiting for this or that, I would still classify myself as an "instant gratification" person. But when it comes to wanting to, and needing to "feel" better....yea, I want instant results. I feel like I've waited long enough!
So, I will post as I have results. Please....keep me in your prayers. Pray for good results and in a timely manner, too. And thanks! God Bless.